You humiliated me
And I lied to you
You didn’t need to know what happened to me
I couldn’t trust you yet
And your version of me
Made your friends give me patronising smiles,
Actively being bitches
They didn’t know we were the same
I swaggered past them,
My bare shoulders cold, their eyes on my back
I spat on their names and I’d love to spit some true words in their faces.
Watch them feel guilty.
My fondness of you was marred by your actions in the aftermath
I acted weirdly the morning after, I was damaged but you didn’t know,
You thought I was a sexless child. Empty brain, I lied to you.
I wasn’t ashamed, I’d had too much wine and I needed to go and vomit.